I’m Having Surgery+Life Update

This photo is old but I promise to take some new ones

If there was an award for best blogger I wouldn’t even be nominated. But I’m trying to get back into the swing of things. I’m pretty impressed with the interest you all showed in my last post.

You all definitely deserve a life update. As most of you already know, I suffer from bladder leakage and it’s not getting better. I’ve tried so many different ways to control it. But now I have to have a small operation early in May. It’s actually really cool because Botox will be injected into the wall of my bladder. Right now my bladder is constantly moving and can’t hold any liquid. So the Botox will make it chill out.

It’s normally a 30 minute procedure done in the doctors office but since I have to have my urethra stretched to get the scope and catheter to fit I have to be sedated.

As much as I’m excited (because this basically life changing) I’m also nervous. As a baby I’ve had lots of surgeries but I don’t remember them. So in a way this is all new to me. I’m nervous about a lot of things. The anesthesia, the procedure, the recovery. I’m so excited but my nerves are getting the best of me.

What tips do you all have? I’ll definitely keep you all updated!

Amina Winter Box+Review

I’m so excited to share this Etsy shop with you all! Wild Plants Love You was sweet enough to send me out there winter box full of natural feel good items. I know spring is so soon but if you live in the Midwest you probably know that winter never really ends here in Cleveland. The snow keeps coming and the coldness never really goes away. From the start of this winter I have experienced the worst allergies. I’m not sure if it has to do with traveling or extreme weather but this winter has been awful for me. I try to use natural products to make me feel better. I’d prefer to know what’s going in my body. Before I get into the contents of the box I want to share with you all ways I make myself feel better.

  • I drink lots of water. Staying hydrated can really make a difference in how you feel. You’ll be surprised how well you will begin to feel once you hydrate your body. I use an app to remind me to drink liquids throughout the day. It’s easy to forget to stay hydrated when there’s a blizzard outside.
  • Face mask. When I feel really gross from a cold or allergies I do a face mask. Sometimes I use a clay mask (my favorite) or a sheet mask (great for lazy days). The only reason I can tell you that this makes me feel better is because it’s nice to pamper yourself.
  • Drink a cup of tea. This goes with staying hydrated but I also feel as though it helps to relax. There’s something about sitting down and enjoying a nice hot cup of tea.

Before I get into the box I should mention that the winter box is no longer available but you can get the spring box which is just as cool. Okay so now I can get into the awesome contents of the box I was sent.

Ruby Delight Syrup– a tasty syrup you can put into your drinks throughout the day to make you feel better. It’s full of herbs that do great things for the body.

Release+Renewal Incense– I love incense. I love it when I meditate and when I just want to relax.

Cool Balm– have you ever felt achy and stiff during the winter? Well, this balm is for you. It’s great if you have a cold or flu.

Cardamom+Anise Infused Honey– I love this honey! It’s great in tea and even great in oatmeal. If winter had an official flavor this honey would be it.

Sage+Mint Throat Spray– I love this spray so much because my allergies give me the worst sore throats. This soothes this so well.

Deep Breaths Aroma Inhaler– this inhaler is the calmest thing I have ever used. I actually just used it. For me it’s calming but also wakes you up.

I’m so grateful for having the opportunity to try out everything in this box. I hope you all will check out the Etsy shop to see if anything interests you.

Bags I Love+Mansur Gavriel Calf Mini Sun Bag

I haven’t done a “Bags I Love” post since last year. My love for handbags hasn’t stopped obviously, I just didn’t realize how much you all enjoyed it. So here’s a new “Bags I Love” post. This time showcasing the Mansur Gavriel Calf Mini Sun bag.

Photo belongs to Mansur Gavriel
Photo belongs to Mansur Gavriel
Photo belongs to Mansur Gavriel

I’m in love with these three colors. Blush, Blu, and Rosa. Mansur Gavriel has been around since 2012 so it’s still a new brand. This doesn’t mean celebrities and bag lovers haven’t been loving this minimalistic brand.

I love this bag design because of how simple it is but it looks like a classic piece that it will last a lifetime. My favorite part of it is the small detail of the bow. It adds a small detail.

This bag comes in a bit over a thousand dollars so it’s definitely an investment piece if you can afford it.

What are your thoughts about this bag? What bag are you loving right now?

I Was Abused And Homeless+My Story

I wanted to share with you all something my family and I had to deal with these past few months. Back in April we had to escape our abusers and had to live in a domestic violence for five months.

It was one the hardest times in my life. But we made it through. Now we’re trying to rebuild our lives. Millions of people deal with abuse. Abuse can happen to anyone and there isn’t one type of abuse.

Living in the shelter helped a lot but we also dealt with abuse there.It was hard but it made me realize that assertiveness changes everything along with knowing what you deserve.

I hope this helps anyone who needs it.

http://www.thehotline.org/help/

https://ncadv.org/get-help

Merkaela+Review

“PAST AND FUTURE ARE IN THE MIND ONLY ‚ÄĒ I AM NOW.”

Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj

I love products that are natural and that make me feel good all around. I like finding ways to meditate while doing everyday things. I like to smell the fragrance on my wrist. I like to enjoy the routine of making a cuppa. I like to massage my lotion into my skin without rushing. It’s about enjoying the small things and not thinking so much about that upcoming deadline or past mistake. It’s about being present in the moment.

I’m very excited because Merkaela gave me the opportunity to not only try their products from the summer box but to also work on my meditation. The environment I live in is a highly stressful place and it’s hard a lot of the times to feel grounded and present. I’ve been doing meditation more lately to help my anxiety. A big thing for me is just enjoying the little things in my life-and just taking time out of the day to just breathe.

Merkaela is a subscription box that sends you out really amazing handmade and natural products. Instead of getting a box every month you instead get one every season.

JASMINE PALO SANTO MEDITATION ELIXIR

I love this spray. I use this when I feel anxious. It helps ground me and allows me to remember that I am present and I am okay. The smell is amazing, it’s light and not overpowering. I use it on my bed and as a fragrance.

TANGERINE & SAGE SHEA BODY BUTTER

Please order the box so you’re able to try this incredible body butter. Lately, I have had dry skin and I think it’s because of stress.This helps so much and smells so good. It has a very earthy which I love even more. A little goes a long way with this jar of goodness.

HIBISCUS TEA POTION

I feel bad about not having the opportunity to try this tea yet but unfortunately, I don’t have a tea infuser because I had to throw out the one I had been using. ūüė¶  But here is what Merkaela say’s about it: “The ultimate wellness blend for the Summer. It is refreshing, hydrating and with high levels of Vitamin C. More importantly, it helps raise conscious awareness to higher levels in order to bring you closer to what it is needed in your life or let go of what no longer serves you.”- Merkaela

PEPPERMINT SOAP BAR

This product smells so good! I haven’t used it yet but I am saving it for a very special bath.

 

PINK LEMURIAN CRYSTAL

I love crystals and I’m very happy about adding this beauty to my collection.

 

SACRED SAGE SMUDGE STICK

I can’t wait to use this.

 

CALENDULA LEMON SALT BATH

I haven’t had the chance to use this yet either because I currently only have a roll-in shower. But as soon ass I get into my new place I ‘ll be using this and enjoying it. It smells so good.

Definitely get you a box so you can experience all of these incredible products. If you reserve the summer box you’ll get 10% off your first order.

 

 More discount codes for you all:

  • ALIVE15 ‚Äď For 15% off our Quarterly Subscription (Month to Month)
  • ALIVE20 ‚Äď For 20% off our Yearly Subscription

 
 

*I was sent these products to review, all opinions are my own.

Anxiety And OCD+Life Update

With the recent passing of Chester Bennington I thought I would be open with you all about a recent diagnosis and something my family and I’ve been through. 

I have finally gotten medication to treat my OCD and anxiety. For a long time I’ve just been going to counseling. It has helped tremendously but my therapist and I agreed that meds would be beneficial to my treatment. I always want to be honest with you all and share my mental health with you all. I think it’s important for others to know that they’re not alone. 

My family and I have had to live in a domestic violence shelter because we had to flee our abusers. I’ll go more into detail about that in a future post.

I really want to talk about this because I don’t want anyone to feel alone. Sometimes it become a lot, trust me I know. You may be at your lowest but know that you’re not alone. Mental illness is nothing you should be ashamed of. So many people live with it. It doesn’t matter which one you have, you’re human and you deserve kindness and understanding just like anyone else.

This wasn’t a planned post so I apologize if I seem to be rambling. I just want to make sure none of you feel alone. 

National Suicide Prevention Hotline

Call 1-800-273-8255

Available 24 hours everyday

http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

Box Of Shadows+Review

Being Wiccan and being a witch are two really big parts of my life. When I’m having a bad day (like today) these two things make it easier for me. I guess that goes for anyone who practices a religion. I was really excited to work with Box of Shadows.

Box of Shadows is this really cool subscription box that sends¬†you Wiccan products right to your home monthly. There are three different types of boxes you can choose from the Initiate box, the Priestess box, or the Supreme box. It’s filled with tools and pieces for your altar.


As you can see I received a lot in my Supreme box. I’m really excited to put all of the things on my altar once I move into my new place. I also¬†excited to have gotten this book in the box because I really want to celebrate Litha this year and the book gives a lot of amazing tips plus recipes. I’ve been loving all things lavender lately so I’m very happy about the incense. Overall I’m very pleased with the box. I think it’s a great way to practice your craft and learn more about it.

Box of Shadows is really sweet and offered you all a discount code for 10% off your first box and free shipping. The code is: SABOS

I’m really happy with this box and I would definitely buy myself one in the future.

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*I received this box to review. All opinions are my own.

Cupi Essential Oils+Review

This blog is gradually turning into a self-care blog and I am completely okay with that. Since recently getting out of a domestic violence situation I’ve been trying to heal from the damage my abusers caused. I did a post about self-care already so you guys probably already have an idea on how I’m coping with my anxiety and depression. One thing I didn’t mention was essential oils.

Cupi Essential sent me out six of their oils plus a sample of their lavender (which has been my favorite lately).

With the lavender I’ve been using it to relax before bed and get better sleep at night. I’m not an expert so I can only speak for myself when I say that it has been helping me out a lot. The best part about all of the oils is that they are all 100% pure and natural so you can feel comfortable using them.

I’m still new to using essentials so Pinterest has been my best friend when it comes to figuring out how to use them. I strongly¬†recommend doing your own research when it comes to possible side effects especially if you’re pregnant.

I want to open this blog post up to you all share with me what you all like to do with your oils. I’m looking into getting a humidifier¬†to help release more of the scent. Like I said earlier, the lavender is my favorite and I personally feel like it helps me sleep better and feel less anxious. Tha

Thank you again, Cupi Essential for letting me try your oils. If you want to try them for yourself visit them at https://www.etsy.com/shop/Cupiessential?ref=profile_shopicon

 

 

*I was sent these products to try, all opinions are my own.

 

Self Care+Why You Should Do It

It’s such a cliche thing to say but it’s really true that you can only take care of¬†others if you take care of yourself. Try not to look at it as being selfish but instead look at it as making an investment in yourself.

Self-care¬†is important for your overall health. Mental and physical. There’s also no wrong way with doing self-care you should do it the way you feel it will benefit you the best way. For me taking a long hot shower and doing a skin care routine makes me feel a million times better. I feel refreshed and renewed.

A big mug of hot tea also helps me feel more relaxed and a ¬†comfy sweater and good book even makes the mood better. You definitely don’t need an extravagant routine it can be as simple as taking a walk or painting your nails.

For a ¬†long time, I always felt like self-care was a selfish act but it’s actually the complete opposite. It’s okay for me to better myself and take care of my own needs. I can give to others and still give to myself.

Below I have a list of things you can do to practice self care:

  • Take a shower/bubble bath
  • Make your favorite recipe
  • Give yourself a manicure
  • Do a face mask
  • Take a nap
  • Look at the moon or stars or clouds
  • Take a walk
  • Have a cup of tea
  • Light incense or candles
  • Read a book
  • Meditate
  • Keep a journal

 

Finding Happiness+How I’m Moving Forward

 

‚ÄúSo we beat on, boats against the current, borne back ceaselessly into the past.‚ÄĚ- F. Scott Fitzgerald

I’ll be completely honest with you all and tell you that a couple of weeks ago I went through something extremely traumatic. It’s amazing how abuse always makes its way into my life. From having an abusive ex to this current situation (which I won’t be discussing on my blog).

But I’ve made the decision not to allow anyone to hurt me anymore, not emotionally and not physically, not ever. I won’t let anyone humilate me, or make fun of me, or talk down to me. ¬†I don’t deserve that and there will never be a time in my life when I will deserve that.

Ironically with my 25th birthday coming in May I feel as though I’m entering a new chapter in my life:finally.

I sleep better, I’m able to eat better, and I overall feel better. I know that I won’t be healed overnight because even with my growth I still get the ocassional knot in my stomach. My heart flutters and my appetite may go away in a quick second only to return.

But I can only move forward and get stronger. I can only live this new life and never look back.

I truly believe that one day I will be the best version of myself. I’ll smile the way I used to. I won’t have nightmares. I won’t be afraid of the outside world. I’ll be okay.