I’m currently listening to this particular song as I write this because it’s my favorite song by my favorite artist, and thought I would share it. I also didn’t have a photo to post, so please enjoy.
Hey there, I haven’t been very productive on this blog because I’m currently drowning in life. I’m trying to keep my anxiety away(which I’m questioning my attempts) and manage my classes. So I apologize for the lack of posts
I do have some news to share. I’ve been quite the busy bee. Earlier this week I had dinner with a blogger friend. She was lovely and I can not wait to hangout again! Which brings me to another point,
if any of you are local to Pittsburgh don’t be afraid to reach out for a meet up, I would love to hangout.
Now I know you guys like to hear about Mr. Gorgeous Eyes, and I do have some news about him but I have to be honest with you all and tell you that he’s not fond of having his real name used on here. I’ve been blogging since I was a kid and have dealt with overly “attached” readers. It comes with the territory of putting yourself out on the internet. I’m pretty careful with keeping myself safe on the internet, but things happen. So with that being said I hope you all can respect his privacy, and I won’t be including any photos anytime soon.
We went a couple of weeks without talking because of phone issues on his part. When we finally did talk I have to admit that I was a bit surprised by what he told me. It’s nothing really, nothing that should be shared on here at least. I missed him a lot, I put up a shield and pretended I didn’t miss him anymore but the truth is that I did miss him. I missed him a lot, and I will
hopefully see him soon. The feelings we both have for each other are still there, and I’m happy to know that. His life isn’t any less chaotic, so a relationship is still out of the question, I know that the feelings are still there and that we both want each other, but what purpose does feelings serve if you can’t act on them?
I met someone else though, his name is Mr. I’m Not Ready. He just went through a breakup and is obviously not ready for another relationship. Which I understand because you can’t just jump into things like that. He’s really funny and very sweet, he is also not fond of being on the blog, sorry guys. But I have to wonder if there’s a reason his story is sort of similar to Mr. Gorgeous Eyes. I keep meeting men that can’t build anything with me, it’s like a sick joke that keeps replaying over and over again. I guess if it all fails at least I made another friend, a good friend.
I haven’t written creatively in a long time. I’m aching to write a poem or another short story. I just don’t have the time to commit to it. Time has been a reoccurring theme in my life for the past couple of years. I got dumped because he didn’t have time for me. Mr. Gorgeous Eyes doesn’t have time to commit to me. Mr. Not Ready can’t date me because he needs more time to heal, and I can’t find the time to write what I really want to write.
This is my life currently.
I do have some good news though, I got rid of a lot of toxic people from my past. They were awful, and now I don’t have to deal with them.