Who I was a year ago, isn’t who I am today. I know how cliche I sound right now, but it’s true. If I have learned anything it’s not to let people treat me unfairly or rudely because they think my wheelchair is a free pass to do so. You guys probably can’t tell, but I’m a little bit stronger than before. Less naive, and a lot more comfortable with my sensuality and sexuality. It’s apart of growing up and figuring out who you are.
I’m starting over, not with a new guy, but with a new me. Would you guys hate me if I quoted Sex and the City? Samantha Jones said, “I’ve been in a relationship with myself for 49 years and that’s the one I need to work on.” Well, I’ve been in a relationship with myself for 23 years and that’s the one I need to work on.
I keep picking jerks because I feel like I have to settle fast, because who else would want the “wheelchair girl”. When I was in high school a few people I thought were my friends told me that I should be happy if any guy talks to me because I’m in a wheelchair and who else was going to want me?
That’s not true. I settled for Ice King because I thought he was my only shot and he ended up freezing me out. I don’t have to settle. I deserve the best and until the best comes around screw the rest, they’re not worth my time.
Think back to when you gave your love to that one person, you gave all of your love, every single drop. Just imagine if you gave that same amount of love to yourself.