I’ve never had such a bad anxiety attack before, it literally had the same symptoms as a low blood sugar. It was awful and I sat on my floor crying. I’m so over this semester. Today alone has been hell, I am so ready for this break, mostly so I can write and read without distractions. Balancing schoolwork is hard when you are so used to reading leisurely. It’s hard to keep a happy face when you feel like each layer of yourself is falling apart. I need a hot bath and a long nap in cozy new pajamas and a big cup of tea. Lot’s of tea, something yummy.
My anxiety has been on an all time high, and I know it’s only because all of the crap I have to do. I just hope the degree I get in the end is worth it. I also hope I get a decent career that will pay me a good amount of money. That way I can be able to afford the therapist I will more than likely need after these years.
Did I mention how much today sucked? Dear Monday, I hate you. Can you treat people better?
Sorry if this post is depressing. That’s just life right now.