I’ve been the least consistent blogger. Sorry guys, I am always busy, and hardly have time to sleep (what is sleep again?). I promised in the last post to let you guys know how things are going so far. I’ll be completely honest. I started back school, and I’m probably the oldest freshman at 22. I’ve met a few nice people, and I joined two amazing clubs. But to be completely honest I still feel a sense of loneliness. Growing up I’ve always found it hard to relate to others or “fit in”, but it seems like I never grew out of it. I find myself reading, and writing a lot. Well, when I can. I talked to a counselor like I said I would and it went well. I have another appointment tomorrow. I don’t mind sharing this with you guys because I know I’m not the only one going through it. I think it will be best for me to stay busy, and do positive things to help others. I always feel much better afterwards.
I learned a lot about what causes my anxiety. My diagnosis of diabetes five years ago really triggered things, and my latest breakup with “Ice King” kind of made things difficult. He was my support system, the one I could turn to. When he left abruptly, I felt unstable. The most important thing to me at that time went away. I also shouldn’t feel silly for still thinking about him. I’m just going through a process to get over him.
I wish this sounded more upbeat and happy, but at the moment I’m pretty relaxed, and okay. I know I’ve been sucking at uploading fashion photos, poems, and recipes( lack of a kitchen) , but I promise to be a better blogger, and writer. I don’t have much else to say, but good luck to anyone else feeling the same way. You are never alone when dealing with anxiety, or depression. Maybe my next post will leave you all with more insight. I would love to hear your stories though, if you feel comfortable doing it, send me an email, or leave a comment telling me about your experience with anxiety.